time....

i have a plan
i don't know how to follow through
i have a dream
every night i pray it comes true

i had a love
it hurt to much to bare
it swallowed me, trapped me
the pain was beyond compare

you may not like me
probably you cant understand
why i'm going on and on right know
i swear heartbreak couldn't be planned

that i would fall in love
if you knew me you would see
of all people
exactly why moving on is so hard for me

trapped in a swirl of fog
a mist of delusions and lies
why do fools fall in love?
someone please explain why?

is there any end in sight?
is it comming soon?
or am i suppost to forever remember this shit?
is this my life of doom?

i can't fall asleep at night
i can't even think awake
the year my life was suppost to start
i guess it was too much to take

i'm pretty sure i'm over you
i can't cry over you now for sure
but i can't help but to forever feel
if between us there could have been more......

i'm not asking for "us" back
that's not what i'm saying at all
it's just that its getting colder and lonelier at night
summer is gone, guess it's time to survive the fall.....
  • Current Music
    whatever you like- t.i.

Touch My Body

Yessir mc with the remix of the american dream
You know me Oh yeah, oh yeah,
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah (we everywhere)
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah


I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
Hundred and two
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause baby I'm up in my bidness
Like a Wendy interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body
.


Oh yes indeed it's the American dream
When I touch yo, work yo, taste yo body
I want you to do to my, get up on my, sit up on my body
If there's a camera (huh)it might leave when I do when (I do)
If there's a camera in here (huh) upload that right up to youtube (youtube)
I'm just playing yea mc tell what to say when they thought of me and you the tabloids calling us out
And how can I deny it when up in here with you your amazing baby when you say

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.


I'm a treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Baby just turn to me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...
  • Current Mood
    stressed stressed

In Bloom - Nirvana

Sell the kids for food
Weather changes moods
Spring is here again
Reproductive glands

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
don't know what it means
and I say

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
don't know what it means
and I say yeeeaaahhh

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

We can have some more
Nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit
Tender age in bloom

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
don't know what it means
and I say

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
don't know what it means
and I say yeeeaaahhh

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
don't know what it means
and I say

He’s the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
Don't know what it means
Don't know what it means
Don't know what it means and I say yeeeaaahhh
  • Current Mood
    drained drained

why is this so hard...

i am so sick to death of this shitty situation....i miss buffalo....i hate being soo bored all the time....and freaking lonely....is this going to get easier?...i have spent too long depressed.....and too long alone....i keep looking up at the stars hoping to see a shooting one....do wishes even come true when you wish on a shooting star....i wish they did....where is god in all this misery....why is this happening....maybe this is all a dream...i wish it was and that in a couple of hours i will wake up to her beautiful brown eyes and her soft pale skin...oh goodness i wish it was true....my lips miss their counterpart...the one i found in her....my palm misses hers....it doesnt sweat anymore....my heart is lonely... i am sorry.... i wish i was waking up to her in a couple of hours....all my love....
  • Current Mood
    lonely lonely

hmmmmmmmmm what to say...

im going to clean my sisters house then go get cigs in town....then smoke a lot of pot maybe.....that is what i do the most.....how could you want to put me through being your friend....and what would that intail...you being able to do what ever the fuck you want...no thanks...still in love....maybe when i get over us...oh wait that will be never. you are the biggest jerk in the whole world and i wish you would stop fucking with my head....
  • Current Mood
    aggravated aggravated

I miss

My best friend...left and leaving...spring forward...im trying not to wonder where you are...this pain in my chest...lonely... if you wanna leave...take good care.,oooohhh baby baby its a wild world...

.....

why the fuck cant i just get over this and let it go....this is way too hard...and i am very hurt and confused....if you loved me...nothing else would matter.....so why does it....okay then....
  • Current Mood
    crazy crazy

Just because

Even though im not talking to you doesnt mean im not thinking about you... i wish we could talk but i really want you to think things through...maybe you wont lose that much but youre my best friend and i am so in love.. i am sorry for saying what i did but you took it the wrong way and to far...i just want to be with you and love you like im sure no one else ever will... and i went to the dmv and they said its not in their jurisdiction so i have to call tomorrow...i just want you happy and i wish i could make you happy...maybe someday...i wish i could have a life with you but i tired of fighting...maybe love isnt enough...idk but i have to shovel at 8 am so goodnight and maybe i will c u in my dreams because in dreams there is no pain, time or distance...i love you always unconditionally...maybe it really isnt ment to be... but i wish it was...